Sad breakup poem for ex-girlfriend

I wish I could sing like my Rockstar friend,
So that I would sing in front of your house and
make you feel how much it hurts to be heartbroken,
but I can’t, all I am is a stupid writer,
who write stupid stuff and throw them here and there,
Till now I was wondering why I was not feeling anything,
any promise of togetherness, I wasn’t believing,
A machine, perhaps I was turning into one,
but then I met you and it was quite fun,
you made me crazy, made me do things that I would have never done,
perhaps there was a part of me who knew, there was no hope from the start,
So girl, did you enjoy breaking my stupid heart?

You are funny, but didn’t know you would make fun of me too,
You were lost in love, I didn’t know you will make me one too,
How stupid I was to think, that I would get something I want,
my luck will let me have someone, I really want,
Now I want to run to someplace quiet,
But what to do with the storm churning inside?
the loneliness of my room isn’t helping me anymore,
no friends could help me, all they could do would cause pain more,
perhaps two packs of cigarettes, a carton of beer would do some temporary healing,
All I wanted was to love you, was that too much asking?

You want us to be just friends,
if that so, tell me my favorite things or my favorite events,
It is clear that you never cared for me,
Friends fight, we never fought as I was always afraid of losing,
Friends don’t hurt, they know it will make living hard,
Look at me, you just made a million pieces of my heart,
You say you are bad, no baby you are not bad,
you are plainly cruel, but you are not even aware of that,
I know this because I waited up all night just to hear that one word from you,
Funny thing is I want to hate you,
but there is too much love for you inside, that is tearing me apart,
So baby, how it feels breaking my stupid heart?

I would survive this, I have gone through this before,
This is a very terrible feeling, but I have been here before,
I know how to smile even when I am wounded from the inside,
I know how to hide the pain, I have been doing this for a while,
but all I ask you is when you meet someone who really loves you,
don’t give him false hope, don’t say words that you don’t mean to,
Because you would never realize how much it hurts,
how terrible it feels when your only dream breaks,
and the worst part is that I can not hate you even if I go too far,
So dear, thank you for breaking my stupid heart…

-N2S
11062015

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