रोज़ सज संवर के आते हैं,
आईने में दो टक और देख आते हैं,
बेकरार भले ना हों, दिल मचलने लगता है तुम्हारे आस-पास,
तुमसे बात करने के लिए हम रोज़ नई नई तरकीबें बना आते हैं,
औरों से नज़रें छुपाकर, तुम्हे छुप छुपकर तकते हैं,
तुम कभी तो जिक्र करोगी हमारा अपनी बातों में,
हम इसी इंतज़ार में कान लगाए बैठे रहते हैं,
बार-बार कुर्सी से उठते हैं,
तुम्हे खोजते हैं और फिर बैठ जाते हैं,
तुम्हारे पास से गुजरने के लिए सौ बार कैंटीन से पानी पी आते हैं,
कभी बालों को सहलाती तुम, कभी उँगलियों से उन्हें उलझाती तुम,
तुम्हारे हसने पर हम बेवजह खिल खिला पड़ते हैं,
हर रंग पे जँचती हो तुम,
सफ़ेद में तो चांदी सी चमकती हो,
हम तुम्हे और खुदको एक रंग में सोचकर ही रंगीन हो जाते हैं,
रिश्ता नहीं तुमसे कुछ, रिश्ते एहसानों को मतलबी बना देते हैं,
नहीं लेकर चलता तुम्हे जहन में हमेशा,
यह ख्याल तो स्क्रीनसेवर की तरह सिर्फ ऑफिस की चार दीवारी में ही पाले रखते हैं,
ऑफिस का साथ है, जरूरतों का मोहताज़ है,
एक न एक दिन अलविदा ही कहेंगे,
उस दिन तुमसे हाथ मिलाकर, तुम्हे आखिर छू ही लेंगे…
-N2S
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Girl, You are the fear of losing job,
You are the fright that gets me on stage,
I live in my room of twelve by ten,
but it’s you who occupy the place,
You are the girl my mum warned me about,
but somehow I am adamant on buying pain,
Whenever I see you,
My brain stops, panic strikes again,
Please ignore any gibberish that I would say;
this stuttering is not a medical condition,
it happens every time I talk to you,
my brain stops thinking, you become the obsession,
It’s just my unconscious mind,
that is stuck on you,
You are the phobia that happens to me on heights,
You are the adrenaline that gets me when I fight,
I know I am a bit of a flirt,
but whenever I see you I believe in love at first sight,
You are the craze when I listen to music at full volume,
You are mania that spills out of control,
My case is incorrigible,
you are the vaccine, perhaps you are the healing alcohol,
If you still doubt my intentions,
you can check my passport,
Apart from getting heartbroken a few times,
I don’t have any criminal record,
Loving you is the only serious illness I am carrying,
Every minute without you is shortening my age,
Your refusal could become carcinogenic,
Without even smoking a cigarette,
You are the frostbite that has numbed my senses,
You are the cobra’s sting that has paralyzed me,
So even if it could kill me instantly,
it would only make me happy,
Sometimes I feel, you are like life,
the more I live, the more I die…
“हमारी जिस्म की राख को उनकी राह पर बिखरा देना, के इसी बहाने इस आशिक़ को उनके कदम छु जाए”
ना फूलों की डोली हो,
नही कोई शहनाई हो,
ना पलके भीगे यारों की,
ना कोई गमगीन समा हो,
जब अपनी अर्थी उठे तो बस,
उसके कदमों की आहट हो,
उसके कदमों की आहट पड़े और,
सफेद लिबास में लिपटी वो दस्तक दे,
देखे वो अपनी हसीन निगाहो से के,
हमारे चेहरे पे वो मुस्कुराहट आज भी है,
छोड़ के गये थे होंठों पर,
वो तारीफ के शब्द आज भी हैं,
तारीफ भी क्या करें उस मंज़र की,
जब वो हमको देखकर पलके झुकाए गुज़रते थे,
क्या तारीफ करें उस सादगी की
जिसपर हम लूट जाया करते थे,
हमारी बेसब्र कोशिशों का बस एक ही मकसद था,
के उसका दुपट्टा गुज़रे हमारे चेहरे से या
उसकी उंगलियाँ हमारे हाथों को छु जाए,
सोचते थे की कोई राह तो ऐसी
ज़रूर होगी जिसके मोड़ पर वो हमसे टकरा जाए,
पर ना वो राह मिली ना ही वो मोड़ आया,
ज़िंदगी गुज़र गयी इसी इंतज़ार में,
ना वो मंज़र लौटा, ना वो दौर आया,
अब जो लोग हमारे जनाज़े को कंधा लिए चल रहे हैं,
हमारी नज़रें अब भी जगी हैं इसी इंतेज़ार में,
के आज तो दुश्मन भी आए हैं हमें अलविदा करने,
एक पल के लिए ही सही वो मेहरबान आए,
ना आ सके वो तो भी कोई उन्हे दोष ना देना,
कोई तो वजह रही होगी,
गुनेहगार नही हैं वो,
हमारी जिस्म की राख को उनकी राह पर बिखरा देना,
के इसी बहाने इस आशिक़ को उनके कदम छु जाए…
“All I wanted was to love you, was that too much asking?”
I wish I could sing like my Rockstar friend,
So that I would sing in front of your house and
make you feel how much it hurts to be heartbroken,
but I can’t, all I am is a stupid writer,
who write stupid stuff and throw them here and there,
Till now I was wondering why I was not feeling anything,
any promise of togetherness, I wasn’t believing,
A machine, perhaps I was turning into one,
but then I met you and it was quite fun,
you made me crazy, made me do things that I would have never done,
perhaps there was a part of me who knew, there was no hope from the start,
So girl, did you enjoy breaking my stupid heart?
You are funny, but didn’t know you would make fun of me too,
You were lost in love, I didn’t know you will make me one too,
How stupid I was to think, that I would get something I want,
my luck will let me have someone, I really want,
Now I want to run to someplace quiet,
But what to do with the storm churning inside?
the loneliness of my room isn’t helping me anymore,
no friends could help me, all they could do would cause pain more,
perhaps two packs of cigarettes, a carton of beer would do some temporary healing,
All I wanted was to love you, was that too much asking?
You want us to be just friends,
if that so, tell me my favorite things or my favorite events,
It is clear that you never cared for me,
Friends fight, we never fought as I was always afraid of losing,
Friends don’t hurt, they know it will make living hard,
Look at me, you just made a million pieces of my heart,
You say you are bad, no baby you are not bad,
you are plainly cruel, but you are not even aware of that,
I know this because I waited up all night just to hear that one word from you,
Funny thing is I want to hate you,
but there is too much love for you inside, that is tearing me apart,
So baby, how it feels breaking my stupid heart?
I would survive this, I have gone through this before,
This is a very terrible feeling, but I have been here before,
I know how to smile even when I am wounded from the inside,
I know how to hide the pain, I have been doing this for a while,
but all I ask you is when you meet someone who really loves you,
don’t give him false hope, don’t say words that you don’t mean to,
Because you would never realize how much it hurts,
how terrible it feels when your only dream breaks,
and the worst part is that I can not hate you even if I go too far,
So dear, thank you for breaking my stupid heart…
