बस मुस्कुरा देना (Bas Muskura Dena)

beautiful woman smiling
“वो वक़्त जब उनको देखते ही दिल की धड़कन तेज़ हो जाया करती थी”

किसी शाम मिल जाती है जब वो राह में,
वही खूबसूरत चेहरा और बड़ी-बड़ी भूरी आँखें,
कहता नही मैं कुछ बस ऐसे ही मुस्कुरा देता हूँ,
इस मुस्कुराहट में ना वो है और ना मैं हूँ,
ये तो बस उस वक़्त की शायद एक याद भर है,

वो वक़्त जब उनको देखते ही दिल की धड़कन तेज़ हो जाया करती थी,
और मैं उनसे मिलने की नयी नयी तरकीबें ईजाद किया करता था,
सोचता था यह कहूँगा वो कहूँगा,
उनसे दिल की सारी बातें कह डालूँगा,
पर जब वो मुस्कुराकर बात करती मुझसे,
मैं पागल, अपने सूखे होंठों को जीभ से गीला करता रहता,
दिन के हर पहर में तो थी वो ही,
और सपनो में तो उनसे ब्याह भी हो जाता,

इजहार-ए-दिल किया ना गया जैसा सोचा था,
और उन्हे भी नही थी फ़ुर्सत मेरे अरमानों को आँखों से पढ़ लेने की,
ना जाने क्या चाहिए था उन्हे,
जब मैं अपनी हर चाहत में उन्हे लिए बैठा था,
कितना माँगा उन्हे उपरवाले से,
मंदिर की चौखट भी पहुँच गया मैं नास्तिक उन्हे माँगने,
झूठ ही होगा अगर कहूँगा की रोया नही मैं अकेले अकेले,
और दो आँसू भी बह गये इस आशिक़ के
जब वा मुझे देखकर राह बदलने लगी,



हमने भी अपनी दू-पहिया मोटरगाड़ी निकाली,
और टूटे दिल को दफ़न कर आए नदी किनारे,
इस डर से के लोग कहेंगे की हमारा इश्क़ झूठा था,
मैखाने में उनके नाम के दो घूँट भी पी आया,

आज कई सालों बाद,
जब वे दिख जाती हैं उसी राह पर फिर से,
और दिल के किसी कोने से एक आशिक़ चीखने की कोशिश करता है,
मैं उसको ये समझाकर चुप कर देता हूँ,
की उनका भी कसूर नही था,

मेरी आशिक़ी को हाँसिल करे उनकी शायद ऐसी किस्मत ही नही थी,
और मेरे दिल को खरीद सके शायद उनकी इतनी हैसियत नही थी,
के अब ये दिल उनके लिए कभी नही धड़केगा,
इस पर वो आशिक़ बोल उठा,
चलो कुछ और ना सही,
उनके आने पर मुँह फेर ना लेना,
मुझे आज भी फ़िक्र है की उन्हे बुरा लगेगा
उस दौर की खातिर बस मुस्कुरा देना…
-N2S
12032014

Love Me Like I Love You

romantic couple
“I want to fall in love again,
All you have to say is Love Me Like I Love You”

If I ever buy a convertible, I want to take you with me,
I would stand on your doorsteps and wait for you to get ready,
You hate flowers, I won’t bring them,
Neither chocolates are your favorite things,
If I would ever sing, I would sing for you,
I know I am terrible but to make you smile, there is nothing I wouldn’t do,
If I would ever try ice cream cake, I want to taste it with you,
Or maybe we would share a bowl of Pho,

I will take you to my favorite places,
And would listen to whatever you would ask me to,
If I would ever get wings, I would instantly fly to you,
I would watch you eat, I would watch you sleep,
I would smolder when you would draw, I would sigh if you would weep,
If I ever have to share my bed, I want to share it with you,
running my fingers on your back, I would cuddle you,
to make you giggle, I would kiss your neck,
I would smell your hair, would do a heartbeat check,



We would talk for hours till you would fall asleep,
I would carry you to bed and give you a goodnight kiss,
I say stupid things sometimes, that I don’t mean,
I just want your attention, perhaps some care I need,
Like you, I have been hurt before, I am heartbroken too,
So without any lie, pretention or deceit;
I want to fall in love again,
All you have to say is Love me like I love you…

-N2S
03062015

Thank You For Breaking My Stupid Heart

Sad breakup poem for ex-girlfriend

lonely boy standing
“All I wanted was to love you, was that too much asking?”

I wish I could sing like my Rockstar friend,
So that I would sing in front of your house and
make you feel how much it hurts to be heartbroken,
but I can’t, all I am is a stupid writer,
who write stupid stuff and throw them here and there,
Till now I was wondering why I was not feeling anything,
any promise of togetherness, I wasn’t believing,
A machine, perhaps I was turning into one,
but then I met you and it was quite fun,
you made me crazy, made me do things that I would have never done,
perhaps there was a part of me who knew, there was no hope from the start,
So girl, did you enjoy breaking my stupid heart?

You are funny, but didn’t know you would make fun of me too,
You were lost in love, I didn’t know you will make me one too,
How stupid I was to think, that I would get something I want,
my luck will let me have someone, I really want,
Now I want to run to someplace quiet,
But what to do with the storm churning inside?
the loneliness of my room isn’t helping me anymore,
no friends could help me, all they could do would cause pain more,
perhaps two packs of cigarettes, a carton of beer would do some temporary healing,
All I wanted was to love you, was that too much asking?



You want us to be just friends,
if that so, tell me my favorite things or my favorite events,
It is clear that you never cared for me,
Friends fight, we never fought as I was always afraid of losing,
Friends don’t hurt, they know it will make living hard,
Look at me, you just made a million pieces of my heart,
You say you are bad, no baby you are not bad,
you are plainly cruel, but you are not even aware of that,
I know this because I waited up all night just to hear that one word from you,
Funny thing is I want to hate you,
but there is too much love for you inside, that is tearing me apart,
So baby, how it feels breaking my stupid heart?

I would survive this, I have gone through this before,
This is a very terrible feeling, but I have been here before,
I know how to smile even when I am wounded from the inside,
I know how to hide the pain, I have been doing this for a while,
but all I ask you is when you meet someone who really loves you,
don’t give him false hope, don’t say words that you don’t mean to,
Because you would never realize how much it hurts,
how terrible it feels when your only dream breaks,
and the worst part is that I can not hate you even if I go too far,
So dear, thank you for breaking my stupid heart…

-N2S
11062015

Read more sad heartbreaking poems:
The Girl I Almost Had
Old Rose

The Girl I Almost Had

lonely girl standing
“Sometimes, I smile thinking about our old days, on the things that we used to do or say…”

Come on! Look at that face,
That cuteness, that sauciness, that grace,
If she talks to you, consider yourself lucky,
coz she doesn’t even make acquaintances that easily,
Those dark black eyes, they are deep as sea,
those pink lips, that can make anyone weak in the knee,
but most of all, that most folks don’t see,
she got one of kindest heart in the whole galaxy,
I know this coz she once loved me,
and made me very happy,

But sometimes things don’t go as we plan,
we cry, we argue, then, in the end, we have to understand,
She was perfect but she wasn’t my destiny,
I wasn’t aware, maybe I was always someone else’s property,
We have to become friends from lovers,
it was really hard to see it get over,
She is like sunshine on a wintery morning,
last wish a person may ask before dying,
Sometimes, I smile thinking about our old days,
on the things that we used to do or say,



All I wish is, she keeps that big smile on her face,
I don’t want much, just the news that she is well and safe,
So any boy out there, who she chooses to love,
consider this a warning, respect her, she was once my girl,
you are a lucky bastard, that God give her to you,
but that doesn’t give you any luxury to be rude,
love her, treat her the best way possible,
coz she is one the best girls in the world,
give her lots of compliments, she likes hearing them,
she loves pretty dresses, ice-cream and fried chicken,
Look into her eyes and tell her that she is beautiful,
her face will glow, nothing can be that cool,

But if you ever hurt her and make her cry,
disrespect her and tell her lies,
Believe me, I don’t forget things easily,
I don’t forgive those who hurt the people I love
or slander my country,
It doesn’t matter who you are or where you will go,
I will find you one day, if not today but tomorrow,
Then I will make you pay very very bad,
so never hurt the girl I almost had…

-N2S
29012016