I don’t want to appear heartbroken,
Please don’t feel sad, perhaps you are mistaken,
It’s just I miss you so much that it hurts a lot,
Life sucks without you and you aren’t even aware of that,

I miss our late night talks on the phone;
And the countless, dumb things we said just not to stop conversing,
The eyes would get sleepy but the fingers wouldn’t stop typing,
You are the last thing on my mind before sleep,
And you are the first person I want to hear in the morning,
I miss how even a minuscule “Hi” from you would make me smile,
The food tastes good and the euphoria stays for a while,
I re-read our conversations when you are not around,
Checking if I have said something weird or unsound,

I still remember, how terrified I was when I said I really like you,
I was afraid that perhaps I would lose you,
But I had to say it as I couldn’t take all that in me,
I thought my heart would burst and you would never know what killed me,
Now you know how I feel when I am around you,
But you still don’t know how much it hurts when I am not around you,
I wish you feel the pain which I am going through,
But I ain’t cruel like you,

I hate myself for not being able to hate you,
You are such a good liar but why I still love you?
I repeat I don’t want to sound heartbroken,
Please don’t feel sad, you are not the reason,
I am lying, these words mean nothing,
If you find tears in my eyes, I assure you I ain’t crying,
Don’t tou

Perhaps I am really terrible at lying,
I miss you plenty, I couldn’t do more denying,
If these words mean anything to you or
if you feel even an infinitely small fraction of what I feel about you,
Just come right away and hug me tightly,
And whisper in my ear,”You belong to me…”

-N2S
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