I Just Need You

woman looking at phone in front of window
I get angry when I see you spending time with others,
Come on! That was my time,
I know you have friends, family and work,
But I want to be on your mind,
I know I am possessive but I am not ashamed of it,
I want you only for me, don’t care what others think about it,
I have a habit of being extremely choosy, so I pick you,
Call me whiny or needy but I just need you,

I won’t say I am perfect, actually I am far from it,
I have a weakness to get attached badly, I can’t help it,
Please don’t get mad or irritated, I am just made this way,
I do what I feel is right, and speak what my heart say,
Sometimes I talk on and on, so that you don’t hang the phone,
Sometimes I go silent, fighting my fears on my own,
I don’t worry about many things, I only fear of losing you,
for every other problem, I know how to get through,

So stay with me as much as you can,
I don’t mind if you talk to me 24 X 7,
I know I am talking rubbish, you are a busy person,
Your mind has million things going on,
You have many important people to meet;
Big goals to complete and exotic places to be,
Here I am, my heart knows only one thing to do,
My world starts with you…and it ends with you…
-N2S
29072016

Mere Dil Ki Manzil

man sits near ocean

अलफ़ाज़ मेरे बेकरार रहते हैं तुम तक पहुँचने को,
उन्हें सुनकर उनको थोड़ी एहमियत दे दो,
थोड़ा सब्र मिले मेरी बेचैन आँखों को,
तुम इन्हे अपनी फिर एक झलक दे दो,
माना की ज़िन्दगी के सफर में हँसीन बड़े मिले,
इस आवारा दिल के किरायेदार बड़े मिले,
पर किस्मत से हमेशा यही माँगा,
मुझे बस तुम्हे दे दो,

जिस मासूमियत से इसने तुम्हे चाहा,
ये दिल किसी और को यूँ कभी न चाहेगा,
मुझे किसी और को देकर उसकी किस्मत में बेवफाई न लिख दो,
माना उसकी मोहब्बत थोड़ी अबोध सी है,
उसे जताना नहीं आता, थोड़ी नासमझ सी है,
उसे है इल्म इस बात का की उसमे ही मिलेंगी मेरी सारी ख्वाहिशें,
पर ये हिसाब करने की फितरत तो मेरे मन की है,
तुम से है बस गुज़ारिश इतनी,
मेरे पास आकर मेरे दिल को उसकी मंज़िल दे दो…
-N2S
22102016

You Are Like Life

pretty girl glowing with light-bulbs wrapped around her palms

Girl, You are the fear of losing job,
You are the fright that gets me on stage,
I live in my room of twelve by ten,
but it’s you who occupy the place,

You are the girl my mum warned me about,
but somehow I am adamant on buying pain,
Whenever I see you,
My brain stops, panic strikes again,

Please ignore any gibberish that I would say;
this stuttering is not a medical condition,
it happens every time I talk to you,
my brain stops thinking, you become the obsession,

It’s just my unconscious mind,
that is stuck on you,
You are the phobia that happens to me on heights,
You are the adrenaline that gets me when I fight,
I know I am a bit of a flirt,
but whenever I see you I believe in love at first sight,

You are the craze when I listen to music at full volume,
You are mania that spills out of control,
My case is incorrigible,
you are the vaccine, perhaps you are the healing alcohol,



If you still doubt my intentions,
you can check my passport,
Apart from getting heartbroken a few times,
I don’t have any criminal record,

Loving you is the only serious illness I am carrying,
Every minute without you is shortening my age,
Your refusal could become carcinogenic,
Without even smoking a cigarette,

You are the frostbite that has numbed my senses,
You are the cobra’s sting that has paralyzed me,
So even if it could kill me instantly,
it would only make me happy,
Sometimes I feel, you are like life,
the more I live, the more I die…

-N2S
20022010