One day, you will understand,
Would realize why I did what I did,
Sometimes we meet the right people at the wrong times in our life;
Perfect ones that we only later realize,
If I get to choose, I would never want to lose you,
My heart breaks, when I look at you,
No matter how much I care or
how much I want to keep you safe,
I keep losing you,
The cruel time never changes its pace,
But you know that I know,
We have to go our separate ways,
With love for each other, to someone else’ embrace,
I wish, this moment just stops and forgets to pass by,
Coz I can’t see you going away,
You are my hardest goodbye…
-N2S
21122015
Tag: heartbreak
Are You Happy?
IGI Airport, New Delhi – Day
She sees him sitting in the lounge, waiting for his flight. He is busy reading a book, but for some reason he raises his head to check the boarding announcement and finds her looking at him, his eyes froze. His heart skipped a beat, he stands stunned. She smiles. He tries too, to some extent. She walks towards him.
She: Hi.
He: Hey.
Both (together): How are you?
She giggles.
She: I am fine…good and you.
He: I am fine too.
She: So where are you going?
He: USA. Just some work.
She: Great.
He: Saw your profile pics. You seem to travel a lot with your husband.
She: Yeah, we have gone to many places.
He: You happy?
She: Yes.
He: Seems like he takes good care of you.
She: Yes he does.
He: Good. He is a lucky guy.
She: You aren’t dating? Or marrying?
He:….no.
She: It’s been 10 years since that time…you…
He: Hey I am getting late. I have to go.
She: OK.
He: You look good by the way.
She: Thanks.
He: See you then.
She: OK. Hey can I ask you one thing?
He: OK.
She: Are you happy?
He: No.
She: Why?
He: My happiness died the day you left me.
She: Sorry…
He: It’s okay. I am fine. I am really fine (holding back tears)…I..ha…ve to go. Bye…take care…
He hurriedly walks towards the elevator, wiping his tears. She stands there looking at him…
-N2S
05082016
My Empty Room
I wish she does it tonight”
Damn my empty room,
this gloomy fluorescent light,
Me sitting in a corner against the empty wall,
And burning on my lips, the fifth cigarette of the night,
No messages from her,
I am still waiting with a faint hope,
restlessness seeps in,
despair grows and grows,
but the phone won’t buzz,
not even for a lie,
there were days when she used to hang after four in the morning,
Now there isn’t even a simple goodnight,
There is a lonely fish in the bowel,
I haven’t named it yet,
No sleep in my eyes,
My heart burned and hurt,
I wonder unaware of my anguish,
she must be sleeping tight,
I am doing nothing wrong
but something isn’t right,
If she wants to leave, just leave,
but don’t give me any more lies,
If she wants to hurt me,
I wish she does it tonight,
Damn! I need something to get high,
These cigarettes aren’t enough,
I have such a bad playlist,
finding hard to get the right words,
I don’t have a single sad song
to speak of my plight,
Nobody to call,
I don’t want to make it someone’s gossip or delight,
Why I even fall in love?
I was content with my lonely life,
But she made it feel worthwhile,
She gave me reasons to be happy and smile,
Now her silence makes me so terrible,
I can’t think straight, I need another light,
God! Give me something please,
I really need something to make through this long night. ..
-N2S
16062015