“There is a place in my heart, where love is sleeping in peace…”
There is a place on the internet,
where beautiful music plays and incorrupt souls sing,
far from the glitz, glamour, noise and fancy things,
Artful creations ripped from the heart, drenched in nostalgic emotions,
Paintings with colors of life and brushes of reflections,
It doesn’t matter if every ear gets them,
Perhaps their beauty lies in whispering the silent rhythms,
There is a place in my city,
where only wanderers and dreamers dwell,
Looking up to the sunset, every day becomes farewell,
There is no haste, there is no chase,
Nobody owns it, and it’s everybody’s place,
Beauty doesn’t have to be praised always,
Sometimes it is just about a moment of cathartic taste,
There is a place in my heart,
where love is sleeping in peace,
Far from disguises, lies, and make-believe,
It is where nobody comes, nobody interferes,
Somewhere I am true, holding something I care,
Life is not about breathing, growing and dying,
Perhaps it is just about feeling…
Girl, You are the fear of losing job,
You are the fright that gets me on stage,
I live in my room of twelve by ten,
but it’s you who occupy the place,
You are the girl my mum warned me about,
but somehow I am adamant on buying pain,
Whenever I see you,
My brain stops, panic strikes again,
Please ignore any gibberish that I would say;
this stuttering is not a medical condition,
it happens every time I talk to you,
my brain stops thinking, you become the obsession,
It’s just my unconscious mind,
that is stuck on you,
You are the phobia that happens to me on heights,
You are the adrenaline that gets me when I fight,
I know I am a bit of a flirt,
but whenever I see you I believe in love at first sight,
You are the craze when I listen to music at full volume,
You are mania that spills out of control,
My case is incorrigible,
you are the vaccine, perhaps you are the healing alcohol,
If you still doubt my intentions,
you can check my passport,
Apart from getting heartbroken a few times,
I don’t have any criminal record,
Loving you is the only serious illness I am carrying,
Every minute without you is shortening my age,
Your refusal could become carcinogenic,
Without even smoking a cigarette,
You are the frostbite that has numbed my senses,
You are the cobra’s sting that has paralyzed me,
So even if it could kill me instantly,
it would only make me happy,
Sometimes I feel, you are like life,
the more I live, the more I die…
“You know how I feel when I am around you, But you still don’t know how much it hurts when I am not around you”
I don’t want to appear heartbroken,
Please don’t feel sad, perhaps you are mistaken,
It’s just I miss you so much that it hurts a lot,
Life sucks without you and you aren’t even aware of that,
I miss our late night talks on the phone;
And the countless, dumb things we said just not to stop conversing,
The eyes would get sleepy but the fingers wouldn’t stop typing,
You are the last thing on my mind before sleep,
And you are the first person I want to hear in the morning,
I miss how even a minuscule “Hi” from you would make me smile,
The food tastes good and the euphoria stays for a while,
I re-read our conversations when you are not around,
Checking if I have said something weird or unsound,
I still remember, how terrified I was when I said I really like you,
I was afraid that perhaps I would lose you,
But I had to say it as I couldn’t take all that in me,
I thought my heart would burst and you would never know what killed me,
Now you know how I feel when I am around you,
But you still don’t know how much it hurts when I am not around you,
I wish you feel the pain which I am going through,
But I ain’t cruel like you,
I hate myself for not being able to hate you,
You are such a good liar but why I still love you?
I repeat I don’t want to sound heartbroken,
Please don’t feel sad, you are not the reason,
I am lying, these words mean nothing,
If you find tears in my eyes, I assure you I ain’t crying,
Don’t tou
Perhaps I am really terrible at lying,
I miss you plenty, I couldn’t do more denying,
If these words mean anything to you or
if you feel even an infinitely small fraction of what I feel about you,
Just come right away and hug me tightly,
And whisper in my ear,”You belong to me…”
All I wanted was an innocent love story,
but you turn out to be the bad girl,
I didn’t realize but you were just playing me the fool;
you never understood my love,
you didn’t know what I went through,
you didn’t know the things I did to be with you,
all you cared about yourself,
your phony, fake, self-created sorry self,
You told me you were heartbroken,
I thought you would know how it feels when something dear gets taken,
but you didn’t even have a little decency,
for you, it was just a game, where I meant nothing,
perhaps you don’t deserve me, or anyone nice for that matter,
coz you don’t know a thing about love,
and how hard it feels when someone leaves you shattered,
You will never understand what is true love,
and I was the stupid who was trying to teach you that word,
just go wherever you want to go,
do whatever you want to do,
I don’t care about you anymore, I am done with you,
but just stay safe, you may be a fool but you were once my girl,
who I really really loved…
“we still don’t know what we are doing, what to do with the life”
Here he goes again, the second time of the week and he goes again,
Monday or Friday, new year or last year, he is all the same,
lying a few feet from the door,
some empty bottles and a diamond ring on the floor,
his life is a mess, it is full of shit,
shut up everyone, Maks is an idiot,
Saturday night, one more day on Delhi streets,
We all are hanging out on CP, I am giving the treat,
the occasion, I don’t remember clearly,
Maks getting the job, I am quitting, it could be any,
Sitting on the stairs of some gaudy mall,
they all look the same, nothing special to recall,
I don’t watch girls anymore, particularly for love,
it doesn’t matter now, I am already hurt by that word,
but he still believes in the love that should be true,
even when he never had one or perhaps never heard I love you,
Another friend got married last month, would be kissing his wife,
we still don’t know what we are doing, what to do with the life,
career heading nowhere,
no one to guide, don’t know how to reach there,
parents want something that he doesn’t want to do,
He knows life would be easier then, but it isn’t what he belongs to,
times are changing, everything changing around,
friends are settling, nesting, having kids but he is going round and round,
Still standing where he was five years ago,
one step up and countless there to go,
but he believes we will be always like that,
a lot good at heart and a little flawed,
his life is a mess, it is full of shit,
shut up everyone, Maks is an idiot,
Watching girls, cute, pretty, long or short,
debating if they are hot or not,
Watching someone cuddling with someone,
we miss someone, he remembers someone,
Here he goes again, the second time of the week,
he has done it again,
Beers for me and others, he is settling for RC,
quacking at first, arguing later and then mumbling something shitty,
for all things he would say, he will not remember any,
we all are lost, we all are intoxicated,
landing on a shop of lingerie, oops I mean jewelry,
the salesgirl from North-East is really pretty,
she smiles, we drool and end up with a diamond ring,
He has lost his “imagination” a long time ago,
knows that life is full of highs and low,
perhaps it’s just a matter of time,
till life teaches us the way to live or we make it dance on our rhyme,
for now, we are happy together, we are alone,
He has a sweet dream, someone waiting somewhere unknown,
Two more pegs, now it’s not he who is talking,
I am still wondering who actually bought that ring,
sorry, sister, he has done it again,
there is no point in trying, he will not remain the same,
Shouldn’t life be a memorable journey?
Some best friends, a cute love and a lot messy,
Yeah, his life is a mess, it is full of shit,
shut up everyone, Maks is an idiot…
